Baby Sitter

Today I took my son to my his baby sitter so he could get used to the environment and interact with her, before I go back to work and leave him for the entire day. When I first got there I didn't want to leave. She is family, but being a first time single mum.... this doesn't really help matters. He had never been to her place before and had never been left with her.
My son is pretty easy going and doesn't make strange with people (thank God). This gives me a chance now and then to have some adult time and let him have play time with an aunt or grandparent.
After about ten minutes of sitting there watching him, I left.
The whole time I was running errands I kept thinking about him and if he was ok. When I returned an hour later all I could hear out in the hallway coming from her apartment was my son giggling uncontrollably! I walked in to see her playing catch with him and he was obviously loving it! There were other toys scattered across the floor that I am sure he made his way through. This set my mind at ease! I felt a great sense of relief just seeing how much fun he was having with her and how good she was at getting down to his level and playing with him.
I finally feel ok about going back to work.

The time is near, work is here!

So this Thursday I am back to work. The good news is I got a new job. It is a more relaxed and enjoyable environment. It is also local so I wont have to drop my little sweetie off at the babysitters as early as I thought (YES!)
I am going to be sad but I am confident in my new sitter. She also promised to record special moments I miss!
As of right now...enjoy my last 2.5 days home!

Back to Work! :(

So I found out today I am back to work in a week! I am dreading it. Someone else will see my little man more then I will. What if I miss the first step or word! What will I do?? I am so full of different emotions right now I could not describe how I was feeling if I tried.
I just laid him down for his nap, but this time I let him hold me and fall asleep before I put him in his bed. A special moment between us because I am sure they will start to become scarce when I am gone all day.
I need to win the lottery so I can stay home and raise my son.
For now back to work I go. So sad.

Me and My Boy

My son is going to be one in exactly a month. Wow the year went fast! The memories of cradling his tiny 6 pound body already seem so vague. The moment I held him and admired his every inch, from the tip of his cone head to his tiny little toes, I knew he was special and he was all mine.
I have been on my own since I was pregnant. In a way I felt like I was missing out. I didn't have anyone to rub my belly or read stories to "our" bundle of joy. On the other hand I felt lucky. I was the only voice this baby knew. The only laugh, the only love. I was this babies world! I was and still am Mummy and Daddy!
So now I look at my son and know I am his everything. Do I feel sad and lonely.... No. Do I feel blessed.... of course.
So who is going to teach him about sports, mechanics, how to be a handy man, women, love, life.... Me! I am going to have to learn some of this as we go, especially the mechanics, but we will do it together.
I am his and he is mine and we could not be any luckier!